我的五年计划

我不是一个每年都做计划的人，而且，我是从19年才开始定人生第一个年计划。那么迟的原因是我知道自己不会完成，那既然不会完成，我为什么要做一个年尾讨伐自己的计划呢？近几年，我陆陆续续的找自己，说来好笑，上天如此的眷顾我，不愁吃穿，我却嫌自己活得不够好。这种不好不是能否买更奢侈的东西，过更‘过分’的生活，而是人来一生（我只相信人只有一辈子），总要干点啥吧。不一定是大破大立，至少你对得住自己。那么问题来了，我要先把自己找到。过程是折磨的，这种‘疼’不要命，但‘手尾长’，而且难度高，特别我身边有一位在中学已经稳稳当当知道自己是谁的人。人最怕比较，我的状况在比较下更显焦虑。身边很多人爱我，也有朋友觉得我自找烦恼，但烦恼是真实地，不解决我也过不去，经历了四五年的找自己运动，真的在20年底，我活得越来越明白。真的的理解目标有什么用，真心愿意去实行，而且附加着愉快的心情，应该没有比这个更好的感受了。

2021-2025计划

1. GR 年收益超 £100万

2. 单板LEVEL 6

3. 体重控制在 45kg ~ 48kg

4. 能够弹10首歌

5. 读50本书

6. 仍然拥有我的好朋友们：3位

7. 爱情生活：保持和现在一样

8. 自己的网站上已经有很多原创文章，继续大放厥词

9. 学习很多小东西,例如：泡咖啡，学香水艺术，学皮毛珠宝知识，化妆等等

10. 能够在业余时间帮助别人

11. 旅游同时拥有非常多回忆

12. 看不同类型的电影

13. 看音乐剧

MY 5-YEAR PLAN

I haven't done any annual plan before. It was bullshit for me as I knew I won't implement it. Therefore, what is the point to beat myself up annually. I am a lucky person as I don't need to worry about money and living. However, I lost my life purpose. I kept thinking: " Is that it? I only come here once (I don't believe after life.), is that all?" I am not trying to improve my material life but I need life purpose. Losing life purpose and don't know who I am was horrible. For me, the feeling wont' kill me but torcher me bit by bit, specially my husband knew it when he was a teenager. Even though some friends believe I am overcare but I know I need to figure it out. In 2019, after all the readings and trials, I started to plan. Doing an annual plan was a start for me, especially I did it with pleasure. Plan of 2020 is mostly done. In end of 2020, I decided to do a 5 years plan, again, I am happy with my ideas as I am starting to know who I am and my life purpose's forming.

2020-2025 Plan

1. GR revenue reaches £1 million

2. Level 6 of Snowboard

3. Weight Maintaining: 45kg ~ 48kg

4. Can play 10 songs by keyboard

5. Read 50 books

6. Maintain my 3 close friends

7. Love Life: as now

8. Lots of writing on thehappymaggie.com

9. Learn small things and knowledge: coffee, perfume, make-up, jewellery etc

10. Charity: able to help people during leisure

11. Travel around the world, having lots of fun memory

12. Watch different types of movies

13. Watch musical